JJ---MINE

Reflected.

2008-05-28T04:03:00.000-07:00

I have thought about it long and hard. i have decided to listen to anjila and TMD. i will try my best to open up and be myself. The reason why im trying so hard to fit into ur family is cos i think you guys are so united and loving. Me? i have nothing. i want a friend. Just one whom i can talk to. I search but cannot find. Not even one. Do you think i want it to be this way? Well, at first i thought Jess could be but then she started hating me. So did Wei Xin. At first we were such good friends. Then i thought. ok, forget it. i should just get on since they dont wanna be friends. I became so alone. That's when i found Syaba, Ameera and Li Si. But, it seems now that Li Si also hates me. You see, it all links up to me. So, final conclusion = IM NEVER SUPPOSSED TO FIT IN ANY GROUP. Now, i think the only people who are friendly are Ameera, Syaba, Cheryl, Amanda and maybe Li Si. i take her as a friend but i duno bout her. She seems so pissed at me. Never mind. Well, Ana is a nice girl too! HAHA.
Well, i have thought about it. thats why i wasnt blogging for SOOOOOOOOOOO long. I will put on a smile towards everyone. You can think im thick-skinned, Acting positive and wadsoever. You know what? I DO NOT CARE! i just wanna be myself. Believe it anot : Since the first day of school in STC, i have NEVER laughed and enjoyed myself. Well, i know i laughed but thats not the real happiness. So far, i couldnt laugh. I laugh but can't you hear that its fake?
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i just hope to relax for a dae. Well, listen up 1D, coz this is my promise to you:

LIKE MS WONG SAID, WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE TH BEST CLASS. AND UP TILL NOW, I THINK WE NEED A LITTLE MORE PUSH. I KNOW NOBODY'S PERFECT. SO AM I. WELL, IN ANY CASE, I JUST HOPE THAT WE WILL WORK TOGETHER AS A CLASS. CLIQUES, GROUPS, ALL ARE COVER-UPS. ALL OF US LOVE EACH OTHER, YOU MIGHT NOT EVEN KNOW IT. OK... I WILL PROMISE TO UNDERSTAND ALL OF YOU MORE. TRUST ME!

OMG. exams finally over liao loh!!!

2008-05-13T01:10:00.000-07:00

HIP.HIP. HOORAE!!!!! Exams are ovr 4 tis term. i can finally use the LAPTOP. th best ting is.....my sis is going to TAIWAN for te whole of nxt wk. :P. nobody fight with me to use laptop liao w00t. btw, sorry for not posting coz of EE. (evil exams). HEE. im SO sad coz i fought with Li Si. duno why but i feel i was in th wrong. HEE. i apologised then she happy. SHE IS DAMN EASY TO PLEASe. :P
Anybody is bored? ME! lol. i have eaten at macdonalds 2dae with JAMIE, SYABA, Sabrina, Shirlyn, Li Si and JEss. but i was bored coz li si was angry at me mahx. i msged her on th LRT later then she happy liao. lol. Guess what? I saw Ameera n Farah and Ameera walked past us like she didnt koe us at all!!! WTH is this. aniwae, i have uploaded some pics. wanna see? KK.

YES!

2008-05-02T05:22:00.000-07:00

Finally, got banned from computer for so long. tats why cannot come post on blogger. HaHA. Sorry. I am VERY happy now. Have a happy family... good fwens... BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH..w00t. Aniway, MDM LOW didnt let us do practical 2dae and i was SO pissed off. it was supposed to be KUAY TIAO day but she didnt let us do it. :(
Madeleine came back today for 1 WHOLE DAY!!!! OMG. She joined us for lessons again. It was like old times except she got prettier =p. Im really bored now. Doing practically nothing. HAHA. I really miss MEL. I want Mel now!!! :(... not with me now. supposed to be with me...though. haha. Mel is The BEST. I LOVE U MEL. (not mel chua or any mel in STC). haha
Im bored. Please chat and tag me more. KK?? thanks to all.

*ps: i might get banned again so canot post for quite a long time. <3

what did i do?

2008-04-19T22:26:00.000-07:00

OMG.. YAY! funfair is finally over. i can rest. OH WAIT. there are still xams. :P funfair was GREAT! i played the bungeee n everyting except haunted house. They said it was fun but i cant go. QUEUE was 2 long. haha. I went around playing EVerY game and won prizes but i COULD NOT win the IPOD! aaaahhhh.. I bought CHEEZE FRIES frm softball stall, many other food frm elsewhere. CHEERLEADING was GOOD. but SICK. WHERE GOT PUMPING IN CHEERLEADING.onli CAROLINE house was clean. im NOW SIIANZ. MADELEINE SAYS IM TRYING TO BE HER. i dun get it. i just wanna be myself. MADELEINE, this goes out to u. if u wanna slap me, go ahead, i tink i nid tat slap to wake up from this NIGHTMARE.. i'll thank u alot. HAHA-- i noe even u hate me now. SORRY. i tink i was born to say sorry and apologize to others for my WHOLE LIFE. 1D, YOU, SKY and sooooooooo many more. HIAX, y cant i be nice? im trying u noe?

WHY?!?!

2008-04-02T00:59:00.000-07:00

Seriously, I think im gona think about transferring school VERY seriously. I cannot stand this school. I envy Madeleine.She just transferred out. Cool. I like alot of people in school-alot alot...But, there are some people who i really cant stand. I know it is dumb to transfer coz of a few people but u will never understand how i feel. I wanna cry. Cry with all i have... 2dae i got upgraded to a chairperson in class but i DIDNT ask ms wong to do so. She told me and CMC members ok?! So, i really wana beg 1d to stop insulting me. I know some of u tink im not fit to be a chairperson and i feel so too but ms wong has confidence in me. Im Sorry. I will not boss u around or ask the class to shut up anymore. NEVER. if anyone asks u to keep quiet, it will be amanda or others. not me. Im sorry if i've used vulgarities by accident at times and i try not to do it again. If i do, i'll die. Are u happy now? Sorry to all... I know my attitude is making alot of people irritated. I never wanted to harm anyone. This is just me.I dun get it. Im trying my best for all but nobody seems to understand.

If anyone of u is jealous, I will be willing to give my chairperson seat to u but please stop rumouring things that are false. It is onli my firs dae being chairperson and i received blackmailing smses... STOP IT PLEASE>....>....

HaBbO HoTeL..HAHa

2008-03-29T04:01:00.000-07:00

2dae was another CHAO SIIANZz day @ home... Went tuition in the mornin,afternoon cme home then watch show: YUAN LAI WO BU SHUAI(another GREAT show by JJ)...Watched until episode 9 then felt tired.It was a Superb show man.. Some tings bout the show:The stupid xin ting go dump xiao zhuang and accepted Jason's pursue. I dun understand y she never choose xiao zhuang. He is WAYYYY beta than JASON. xiao zhuang did so many things for xin ting unconditionally but she still rejected him.. STUPID. I plae habbo lo. Siianz wad. Who knws tat i made SO many new fwens online and i even becum a mummy.have 3 kids and LG...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...habbo fin. Cum ere 2 post blog lo. LOL-- I Love Watching yuan lai wo bu shuai... VERY nice ROMANTIC LOVE show.. Go watch. U can buy it frm any cd shop for $18.90-$19.90.There is volume 1 and vol.2. I bot both. Coz i LOVE jj. haha. tats all.

What is the PROB>>?

2008-03-28T10:24:00.000-07:00

Omigosh...I really cant make out wat in the world is the problem with 1Saint Deidre... The WHOLE class is going down bcoz of a STUPID class Tee.. WTH! Who was the retarded one who even suggested we get a class t-shirt? Oh man... The class and the unity is no longer there..THAT is the whole reason y i do not wanna stay in this dumb class...
I completely feel that there is nothing to let me stay here for. I just wish tat 1D would cum to their senses n be sensible.GUYZ,THIS IS SECONDARY SCHOOL,NOT PRIMARY SCHOOL.wake up already!!! As a Vice-chairperson of the class, i noe i have to set a good example and be enthusiastic so the rest of the class will follow. I told the CMC members to be ENTHU but wat's the point?!?!? Nobody in the class actually listens. 1D is supposed 2 b the BEST class ever but look at IT... Its A WRECK. No point if only a few people cooperate and the rest do not. IT TAKES 2 HANDS 2 CLAP OK???!??!!???
So,i really do hope that all the childish behaviour were just coz those ppl were still living the primary school life. But, please come around soon...we will be 2gether 4 at least 2years...THANKS! LOVE...

ITs Mine

2008-03-27T21:47:00.001-07:00

erm,im in sch now so, post wen im home...LATER